If you're happy and you know it.....
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
All about Tania
Hehehe, the title freaked you out didn't it Tania?? No...awwww. Tania Tania Tania...what can I say about her except that she is probably one of the hardest people to freak out (which is what I am constantly trying to make her do because it bugs me that she is so calm all the time, probably because her being "chill" all the time makes me look even more "not so chill" heh.)
No actually there is a lot I have to say about her:
She is one of the happiest people I know, always cheerful, and looking on the bright side, especially when things go wrong, praising the Lord even if she going through it! She has convicted me many a time because of her praisful attitude.
She is also super fun to be around and goes along with all the weird things I do and comes up with a lot of weird ideas herself, she isn't shy and helps me to get out of myself.
She is always there for me when I need her and understands me completely, never judging me by what I say or do and never taking what I say when I am upset, angry or freaking out too seriously but instead calms me down the best way she knows how, you know what this is Tania....hehe ok guys, no it's nothing dirty minded...she sings me this song, I'm sure you all know it, its by Simon called "let it go". anyway, when something is really bugging me she just says "Victoria" gets this cheesy grin on her face, raising her eyebrows up and down really fast and starts singing that song while doing a little corny dance to it, it always makes me laugh and I end up forgetting what was bothering me.
She gets me food when I am feeling sick
She wakes me up 3 or 4 times every morning because I never hear my alarm (which is right by my head), never getting impatient or annoyed.
She lets me sleep with her on her small single top bunk when I want to
She doesnt get mad at me when I spill water all over her bed just before going to sleep (purly by accident)
She doesnt get mad at me when I forget we were supposed to hang out and talk of the phone for an endless amount of time instead
She always makes me laugh
I can go on and on but I don't want to flatter her too much ;-) Oh, just one more thing, did I forget to mention that she is gorgeous? and that hair...oooo lalala, and BTW she is 18 now heheh
I love you Tania, don't ever lose your happiness
Victoria
Friday, June 08, 2007
Hey guys, wow I haven't posted in an eternity, and have been told many a time by many a person that i am 'boring' (what do they know?) and that I needed to put new pictures up (awww they just want to see more of me..;-) ) Anyway there are a lot of reasons why I haven't been posting, I guess one would be that I don't have a whole lot of time, with being a tot/preschooler teacher, full time childcare worker, with the XD and now I am one of my home managers, it is hard for me to find the time to post, but I do miss it, a lot actually. another one of the reasons is that over the past 3 months I have been getting hit on all sides by the Enemy, going through battles after battles, trials after trials...you get the picture. It's hasn't only been spiritually, but physically as well. It's just been really hard for me, as I don't like feeling sick, I don't like needing more rest, or needing more prayer, but it seems that the Lord is breaking me in every way possible, and is testing me to my limit to see how far he can go, to see how much I am willing to take for Him.
Many times through these past months I have felt like giving up, felt like it wasn't worth it, felt like I have more problems now, more trials and battles then I did before I rejoined, even before I completed my 6 months. So "why" I would ask myself:
"why am I here, is it all worth it? My spiritual life has been going down hill, the word just doesn't seem to sink in as it did before, I feel like I lost my connection with the Lord, I lost my enthusiasm, my joy of the Lord, and not only that but I haven't been feeling well physically either. It hasn't been anything serious, I'm just not as strong and healthy as I should be, I'm weak not only spiritually but physically as well, it's like everything is going wrong and I don't know if I can take it anymore. This is probably the longest battle I have had to go through, it's been going on for at least 3 months, and I feel like it is never going to end. I have to constantly fight discouragement, doubts, negativity etc...and I am sick of it. It's like the worse I am doing spiritually, the worse I am doing physically, and then the worse I am doing physically th worse I am doing spiritually because I get discouraged and negative. It is just this vicious cycle and the devil will not leave me alone. I have lost my fighting spirit, my will to fight and win, and I feel like I am just floating, waiting for something to happen, waiting to be saved, but not having the faith that I can be...is there any way out?"
So this is a peek of what has been going on in my life, and a big part of why I haven't been posting, I didn't want to write about this, the only reason I am doing so now is because the Lord asked me to, maybe I will get more prayer this way, I don't know, but the Lord does, and all I can do is obey Him.
The other night I was reflecting on all that has been happening in my life recently and it came to me that I am not being attacked because the Lord doesn't care about me, I am being attacked because I am a 'live one', the Devil knows how useful I am to Jesus, to the Family, and he wants me dead, he will use anything and everything to try and get me to quit, even if he can't get me to leave the Family, he will try and get me to be unhappy (which he has been doing), to be unfulfilled, to be depressed, to have no hope, no faith. He is soooo angry at me, at us (the Family). I should be happy that I am getting attacked, happy that I am battling, because at least I am a 'live one'!
Because this battle is so intense and long, I am learning 2ice as much in 2ice as little time (if that makes sense). There is so little time left until the offensive, so I think the Lord has to teach us all that we don't know yet but that we need to know for the offensive in a short period of time and that is why the battles are more extreme. But they will make us stronger if we endure them, if we but just hold on, we will come out stronger then ever before. And the quicker we learn the lesson that needs to be learnt during a battle, the quicker the victory.
Today my sister Joan prayed for me (for the physical side) for my healing, that everything in my body goes back to normal, and after she finished praying she got that I should blog that I was better, this is a great step of faith for me, and it's pretty hard but I'm doing it because Jesus said to. So TYJ I am healed of every little ailment that I have been getting the past few months, and my spiritual side is on the way to being healed too.
Thank you Jesus for every battle that you have put me through, for every tear that I cried because of them, for every time I felt like giving up, for every time I felt it wasn't worth it, because through those times I have become stronger, I might have felt like giving up a million times but thats not what matters, what matters is that I didn't. So thank you for putting me through 'fire and hell' to make me not only stronger but also really appreciate the times that I am not going through something, and thank you for putting me through tests and physical battles so I can more understand others who go through the same things. Most of all thank you for loving me enough to break me, so you can remake me into who you want me to be. I love you
I hope this wasn't too long, and that it was a blessing in some way to at least one person. I would like to ask for prayer that I stick it out and stay strong not in myself but the Lord. thank you fore reading this and I will be posting pics soon,
I haven't even posted my wordstock pics yet, heh, I'll make a statement to post them a month later, heh
