If you're happy and you know it.....
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Testimony & prayer requests
A little while ago I posted that I had been having some physical afflictions, I would like to elaborate on this point: the Lord had been using them to draw me closer to Him, to make me cling to Him and it worked for a time, I was more desperate, I made more of an effort to get all my word time etc...and the Lord healed me, it took a little while because of my stubbornness and my lack of faith, I guess I felt bad for neglecting him, for not putting Him first and so I didn't feel like I deserved to get better. [I didn't have anything serious, I was just experiencing a lot of pain in my uterus and ovaries, was always tired, feeling weak etc...] But the Lord told me that my physical health was a manifestation of how my spiritual health was doing. Anyway I finally got better (the Lord healed me with the help of some antibiotics I was given to take by a doctor that the Lord supplied), but soon after I did, I started falling back into my old self again, really wanting to get all my word time, my prayer vigil etc...but carelessly allowing it to be crowded out of my life. I feel it pretty bad in the physical when I neglect the spiritual, I actually feel physically sick, like a bad headache or nauseous but as soon as I get my word it's gone, so this happened a few times after I got better, sort of like a warning that I was getting off track again, like a gentle breeze trying to blow the vine to the tree without forcing it. You would think I would take the hint, since I just got better, but no, silly old carnal me wanted to have fun and do my own thing, and I foolishly let the Lord get crowded out of my life once again.
So, yes, I got back again what I had (nothing serious, just a nuisance), I was devastated, especially because I did not want to have an affliction during XD (can't wait). I cried and got really desperate with the Lord asking him why He would heal me, and make me so happy that I was going to be all better at XD and then just before, give it back to me again, I was upset and angry and not at the right person.
Thankfully He finally got through to me and told me that in order to be healed again I would have to really do my part to put Him first wholeheartedly, He told me that even though I completed my 1st year in the Fam and wasn't required to get an extra hour of word anymore, He still wanted me to get it, and that if I was faithful to get it every day, he would heal me before XD.
It was a step of faith for me to just take what He said and implement it, but I did and I am so thankful because 10 days later I was completely healed, I had a doctors appointment but by the time I got to it, they couldn't find anything wrong with me. TYJ
Isn't it just amazing how the Lord works? And how if we do our part to obey Him and read his word faithfully every day, he will do His part to care for us and provide for us in every way possible, with good health, financial blessings, material needs and most importantly spiritual well being?
In my P&P time today the Lord told me that just reading an extra hour of word for these 10 days has strengthened my faith because faith comes by hearing the word of God. And other have noticed it as well.
So the moral/lesson to this story is learn your lesson the first time or better yet learn from the mistakes of others otherwise you might have to go through the same thing again. but even if you are stubborn like me and have to learn the hard way Lord will use it for good. Still, if I would have been faithful to stay close to the Lord and in His word the first time, I wouldn't have waisted time having to go through the same thing.
I am happy that Jesus' love for us is unconditional, and that he has an X amount of patience and understanding because sometimes we can be so thick headed and take so much time to learn one little thing, like for Me it was putting the Lord first, I now realize that no matter how important the things we need to do are, (even going out and winning souls), if we are not obeying the Lord and feeding our souls and spirits and putting the Lord first then we are in the wrong.
One last thing, I would like to ask for prayer for continued faithfulness to get my extra hour of word and prayer vigil, but to have a real desire to do it, not just because I am afraid of getting sick again, but because I really want to.
And I would also like prayer for my spiritual growth especially during XD that I am open to whatever the Lord has planned for me there, to be a new bottle and to be open to shepherding etc...
So, yes, I got back again what I had (nothing serious, just a nuisance), I was devastated, especially because I did not want to have an affliction during XD (can't wait). I cried and got really desperate with the Lord asking him why He would heal me, and make me so happy that I was going to be all better at XD and then just before, give it back to me again, I was upset and angry and not at the right person.
Thankfully He finally got through to me and told me that in order to be healed again I would have to really do my part to put Him first wholeheartedly, He told me that even though I completed my 1st year in the Fam and wasn't required to get an extra hour of word anymore, He still wanted me to get it, and that if I was faithful to get it every day, he would heal me before XD.
It was a step of faith for me to just take what He said and implement it, but I did and I am so thankful because 10 days later I was completely healed, I had a doctors appointment but by the time I got to it, they couldn't find anything wrong with me. TYJ
Isn't it just amazing how the Lord works? And how if we do our part to obey Him and read his word faithfully every day, he will do His part to care for us and provide for us in every way possible, with good health, financial blessings, material needs and most importantly spiritual well being?
In my P&P time today the Lord told me that just reading an extra hour of word for these 10 days has strengthened my faith because faith comes by hearing the word of God. And other have noticed it as well.
So the moral/lesson to this story is learn your lesson the first time or better yet learn from the mistakes of others otherwise you might have to go through the same thing again. but even if you are stubborn like me and have to learn the hard way Lord will use it for good. Still, if I would have been faithful to stay close to the Lord and in His word the first time, I wouldn't have waisted time having to go through the same thing.
I am happy that Jesus' love for us is unconditional, and that he has an X amount of patience and understanding because sometimes we can be so thick headed and take so much time to learn one little thing, like for Me it was putting the Lord first, I now realize that no matter how important the things we need to do are, (even going out and winning souls), if we are not obeying the Lord and feeding our souls and spirits and putting the Lord first then we are in the wrong.
One last thing, I would like to ask for prayer for continued faithfulness to get my extra hour of word and prayer vigil, but to have a real desire to do it, not just because I am afraid of getting sick again, but because I really want to.
And I would also like prayer for my spiritual growth especially during XD that I am open to whatever the Lord has planned for me there, to be a new bottle and to be open to shepherding etc...
Saturday, August 25, 2007
1st year in the Family
So today is the day I have completed my 1st year in the Family, wow, it's crazy to see how much I have changed and how much the Lord had done and accomplished in my life in just one year! When i look back now at all the things I went through, doing the first 6 months were really hard and trying for me, then the 6 months after that were filled with even more battles and hardships, there were times that I felt this wasn't the life for me, that I wasn't strong enough, that I couldn't make it, that the battles were too long and hard and I was tired and weary and didn't want to fight anymore. Oh boy, those were tough times, then I would feel bad at the millions of time I felt like quitting, but the Lord was always so patient and understanding, and He would ask me "are you still here? Are you still in the fight? and I would say "Yes Lord, I am" then he would say, "it doesn't matter how many times you fall, how many times you feel like giving up, what matters is how many times you get back up on your feet, how many times you hang on and you don't give up, that's what counts."
I want to post my prayer for today, it's a little personal but I really want to share it so I claim the keys of humility, here goes:
So its been a whole year that I am in the Family, thank you for putting up with me Jesus, thank you for helping me through all the tough times and battles, thank you for being my “Lion” and for always being there for me. Thank you for giving me all the trials, all the afflictions all the battles that I have endured this past year, because they have made me so much stronger, they have pushed me to be closer to you, they have forced me into your arms, they have forced me to trust you, they have forced me to realize that you are enough, that no matter what happens, no matter what I lose, You are enough for me to be happy. Thank you for making it hard for me, thank you for all the tears that I have shed, thank you for shedding them with me, thank you for picking me up and carrying me when I couldn’t walk anymore, thank you for holding my hand and for not letting go even when I did, thank you for correcting and chastening me when I strayed, thank you for making sure I came running back to you, thank you for always lovingly forgiving me and giving me another chance. I love you Jesus, you are my one Love and I am in love with you, thank you for making sweet love to me.
I want to post a excerpt from a letter that has helped me:
These deep difficulties and struggles of daily life are breaking you. But the more pieces I have to work with, the more I can do with you. The more you are broken in My hands, the more useful you become to Me. And so continues the process of breakings and strengthening and greater usefulness. I am breaking you so that I might use you much, much more.
I am creating a collage of your lives--a collage from the broken pieces of the difficulties you face, the battles you encounter, even the mistakes you make. The more breakings I allow you to go through, the more material I have to work with in My design for you. This collage is not meant to be a pretty picture for people to look at or a pretty design for people to admire--but it is meant to be held up to the window of My light. My light will shine through the stained glass window of your shattered pieces, revealing beautiful colors, enhancing depth, adding light and beauty to the lives of those who walk in your footsteps.
(Finding Beauty In The Collage Of Life!)
I love you Jesus, all I can say to everyone is hold on, if you are going through something it's because you are a live one, and good will come out if it, the Lord is creating you.
I want to post my prayer for today, it's a little personal but I really want to share it so I claim the keys of humility, here goes:
So its been a whole year that I am in the Family, thank you for putting up with me Jesus, thank you for helping me through all the tough times and battles, thank you for being my “Lion” and for always being there for me. Thank you for giving me all the trials, all the afflictions all the battles that I have endured this past year, because they have made me so much stronger, they have pushed me to be closer to you, they have forced me into your arms, they have forced me to trust you, they have forced me to realize that you are enough, that no matter what happens, no matter what I lose, You are enough for me to be happy. Thank you for making it hard for me, thank you for all the tears that I have shed, thank you for shedding them with me, thank you for picking me up and carrying me when I couldn’t walk anymore, thank you for holding my hand and for not letting go even when I did, thank you for correcting and chastening me when I strayed, thank you for making sure I came running back to you, thank you for always lovingly forgiving me and giving me another chance. I love you Jesus, you are my one Love and I am in love with you, thank you for making sweet love to me.
I want to post a excerpt from a letter that has helped me:
These deep difficulties and struggles of daily life are breaking you. But the more pieces I have to work with, the more I can do with you. The more you are broken in My hands, the more useful you become to Me. And so continues the process of breakings and strengthening and greater usefulness. I am breaking you so that I might use you much, much more.
I am creating a collage of your lives--a collage from the broken pieces of the difficulties you face, the battles you encounter, even the mistakes you make. The more breakings I allow you to go through, the more material I have to work with in My design for you. This collage is not meant to be a pretty picture for people to look at or a pretty design for people to admire--but it is meant to be held up to the window of My light. My light will shine through the stained glass window of your shattered pieces, revealing beautiful colors, enhancing depth, adding light and beauty to the lives of those who walk in your footsteps.
(Finding Beauty In The Collage Of Life!)
I love you Jesus, all I can say to everyone is hold on, if you are going through something it's because you are a live one, and good will come out if it, the Lord is creating you.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
THANK YOU
I just want to say a big thank you to Katrina from my home, she is 10 years old, but acts a lot older, she has been my helper over these last few weeks when I had to take the kids by myself a lot of the days because of short staff.
I would not have been able to do it with out her, she allowed me to be able to do all that I needed to do in the day, she watched the other 5 children for me so that I could clean the room, do the laundry, get water and snacks for them, go to the bathroom etc...I mean I know it may not seem like big things but her helping me by watching the other kids so I could do these things, or helping me by running errands and doing things things for me, enabled me to keep the classroom and bedrooms in shape, and not have to clean up and do all those things during quiet time. It may seem like a little job, and that she didn't do much, but it made a world of difference to me.
Thank you Katrina for making this time easier on me and definitely less stressful, you are a Gem and I appreciate you, and love you.
